It’s just so different now. Is it supposed to be the way it is? Why do I feel sometimes you care a lot & sometimes you just don’t seem to give a shit? Am I just over-thinking? Sensitive? But I don’t think I am. It’s just something wrong, but I don’t know what…. Sighhh…
Please give me the strength to stay happy… Broke down crying in class today.. I can’t do it…
What if I’m gone forever? I wish you could miss me forever. Maybe it would when I’m gone.
I wanna be drunk forever, unconscious forever, dead forever, because it hurts, & I can’t face the reality…. I know this isn’t what you want, I don’t blame you…. Broke down crying in the mrt & even before sleep…. This is hell… This is torturous….. I want to meet you.. & h wish you would agree to it… I’ll just skip every thing, every single thing until I get to feel back like me again… It’s okay, I want to give up EVERYTHING…. I’m sorry I’m not independent… It’s just killing me…. I cannot break down crying in school… I hate myself….
WHY IS IT SO MOTHER FUCKING UNFAIR?! NOW YOU TAKE ME FOR GRANTED AFTER YOU HAVE ME. IM NOT FUCKING ASSUMING YOUR ACTIONS SHOW EVERYTHING.
